pain, reminiscence, and anger.

[olivia christine wood]

OVER AND OVER
i fall for you.

olivia unlocked the door to their loft, stepping inside and heading toward the kitchen. she was going to make carson his sandwich and then sneak off to her studio to sketch for a while, maybe text jasper but carson grabbed onto her arm.

“where do you think you’re going?” he asked.

“i thought you were hungry…” she mumbled. “but why couldn’t i stay with jasper? we were having a good time!”

she moved over to a mirror hanging on the wall, slowly removing her scarf. honestly she didn’t need it at the moment, it was warm enough but she had been trying to hide a few bruises. they were showing now, dark purple and gray blotches on her otherwise pale neck. she sighed and considered whether she had makeup that would cover up the bruises on her neck.

it was all because she had stayed out too late with jasper. they had been hanging around brighton beach all afternoon and well into the evening when they finally got dinner and he rode home with her. and of course carson had been angry. he always got too angry, at the thought of his girlfriend being out too late with any guys. but jasper was her only other friend, she’d spent most of her childhood and teenage years with him.

carson came over and wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close to kiss her. he was still holding her too tight and she didn’t like it, just wanted to go back out again but she couldn’t. she tried to just play along for now, wrapping her arms around his neck.

“so i’m forgiven?” she asked, smiling.

“i’ll think about it.”

“awesome.”

olivia pulled away, going to sit down on the sofa and pulled her phone out of her pocket, reaching for her sketchbook and pencil at the same time. while she flipped it open one handed she started to send a quick text to say hi to jasper, and apologize for having to just run off like that without much warning. she hadn’t wanted to but she didn’t want to have too much of a disagreement with carson. not when he was already seeming to be in a bad mood.

“hey, who are you talking to?” carson asked.

“i um…i wanted to text jasper…”

carson pulled her up off the couch, knocking both the sketch book and her phone to the floor and holding tightly to her arm. his hand twitched, like he was going to hit her and olivia flinched, squeezing her eyes shut. when she didn’t feel anything, no pain or a little sting she slowly opened her eyes again. carson still held onto her but he had loosened his grip and his other hand had stayed at his side.

“i…i’m sorry. how about um…we could um…spend some…time together?”

OVER AND OVER
i try not to.

word count: 470
tagged for: gloria/carson
lyrics from: OVER AND OVER | three days grace
outfit: effort.
notes: longest yet!
credits: made by MADDIE. steal or modify and she’ll eat you.

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